Being my typical jerk self, I used to call her Orca (as in a whale)

But sometime after I had de-comped and was still in the PTSD fog, I was channel-surf-vegging and came across Oprah talking about her own abuse recovery. She said she knew she would be better after she could say:

"This is who I am; that was something that happened to me."

That really seared into my heart and mind. It got through the idea that I was not the abuse, it was just something that happened to me, but it was not my identity.

But, I could not speak those words either for almost a year or two into recovery.

Now I can speak them aloud, almost like a song.

"This is who I am; that was something that happened to me."

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But just now I was just listening to an Oprah interview on the Tavis Smiley radio show.

She says her favorite quote is:

"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart."

OK, Oprah. I followed on the first step. I will take the upgrade.

I shall delight myself in the Lord, and He will give me the desires of my heart . . .

but please make His will, mine, too.

Thanks again, Oprah.

Sunshine.