I have a two week period of time spent with my grandparents that I do dot remeber, and they molested my mom when she was little.
I have been wanting these memories back so I can deal with them. But they cannot be forced. In my case others have gotten to me so I do know the the rest of the abusers.
Work on what you have, and your body will let you have the memories when you are ready.
You can still get mad with out knowing who did it.
Standing together is so much better than hiding in the dark.
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