Frankly, I am having a really hard time being and recovering in a world in which I am verbally assaulted every day.

These sometimes negative and usually hateful comdemnations of my relationships and my personhood only bolster the abusive things that were said and done to me from day-one.

I was starting to do well before they started pushing their hate agenda so vehemently and relentlessly. Now, almost every day's long path stretches out before me full of potholes and the potentially bottomless pit.

I know that many people feel differently. Some say so. A few of those actually do something about what they say they feel. Whatever it is, it is not enough to still the hateful, hate-filled voices. (This "hate" is not merely an expression--its the real thing.)

I don't know how much longer I can take it. I don't know if I can make it. It was hard to begin with. The older I get, the worse it gets.

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Sometimes, things just won't work the way we want them to.