Hi, new member.

My abuse started when I was 12. My father remarried and my 18 year old 'step-brother' shared a room with me. It was just as my sexuality was blossoming in. I was becoming attracted to girls before this.

I wasn't totally coerced, but because of the age difference, I now feel it was abuse. It was mutual oral sex and his penetrating me anally. It went on several times a week for a few years.

I am basically attracted to men now, yet wonder if I was 'meant' to be gay. Sorry if this is offensive to some.