I am rather new at this. both my late therapist and my current one suspected with almost 90% certainty that i had been sexually abused by my fourth grade teacher, mr. brown, back in 1974. i show all the symptoms of someone who had been abused, including a fixation on young boys, as though i am a victim ready to commit the criminal's crime. that I am gay is a complicating issue. i have also been thinking about the man i met when i was fourteen, who was kind enough to pay attention to me for about ninety minutes while we talked politics. my sense was that I wanted him to take me away to be with him. these thoughts came to mind after watching hte film "LIE," which is about a child molester's pursuit of a gay teenaged boy. if you ever get the chance to watch it, do so. it is powerful.

eric