I am delighted you are getting so much support from this room. that must make you feel good and less alone. we have all suffered because of abuse and recover from it in small steps. you are taking some of those steps by sharing in this room good for you!!! I hope you are able to find something positive each day in your life to focus on. I'd suggest you keep making attempts at therapy until you find someone you can relate to. not all therapists are alike. best, pondboy (chuck)