i can't say whether 'challenge' is the right word
but think of this -
each day -
that you feel 'you need something'
you need to be reminded - you're loved -
you're special - and
you must take care of you -
perhaps try this -
we are all trained to do things -
why not "train yourself"
to give yourself little reminders
that you're loved and special - to yourself
and maybe do it eventually too -
in a structured way:
becuase you are - you are special - you are loved -
you are loveable -
the physical needs and the concrete needs are
part of life - but
the other part is so important too.
so if i don't have someone here to remind me.
I am going to love myself -
"a good morning sunshine note"
a walk to get coffee each day before setting to tasks.
a healthful workout -
and other things - like going to the park -
I mean - I cannot breach completely - what relationship will come to me in life
I could live ultimately only for pragmatics -
money - the economic -race -
but - what of some letting go - and enjoying the
it will all take care of itself on some levels -
I just need to do what I do - and enjoy doing -
I cannot live all lives -
the only one that I have to live with is my own
and be satisfied with that -
potential ? fuck it - my potential is
am I a race horse to be pushed as far as I can be before dying?
do I say - bite my excrement you heartless idiots
- I live ok - moreso - I will not volunteer for a relationship like that -
if they really cared for my potential
they would not have waited until the last minute
to suddenly surprise me with that idea -
never a detail mentioned - only the abuse to hurt