In my last therapy session a couple of weeks ago, I was talking about getting to the point where at least one day goes by when I don't think about the attack...She gave me some mind exercises to do, where as soon as I would start thinking about the attack and rape, I would force my self into thinking about something pleasant or something I enjoy doing..It is not working at all and I suddenly relized today, It may be because, every time I think about it , what goes thru my mind is what I should have done different to prevent it..I guess after 7 months of therapy and anti-depressants, which has made a big difference in my life, I still am blaming myself for not doing more to prevent it or fighting harder...