my counsiler has asked me to give a new meaning to the word love,yes the thought of haveing the ability to change that made me all most brake down but i held my ground and tried to bring the posablity to light, it only caused me to sink farther, it was to overwelming, it scared the hell out of me, i felt like a child standing at the screen door to the world and very fritend of what was out side,i will have to wait to do that later....