A brief history: abused as a kid, spent 20 years telling myself it did not have an efect on me (it did). 10 years ago I met a woman who told me abuse happend in her family but not to her, I strongly suspect it did. I fell in love with her but it did not work out. 3 years after that I went into therapy made a lot of progress and made a better life for myself. Now I realize there are more effects in my life that I want to work on.
I have been searching the net, found this group, and a few others. As I read all the stuff in the groups, I think of her, and want to contact her. I want to apologize, I want to explain, I want to hold her, I want to get back together.
It seems part of my healing is conected to her. Can anyone relate ? Any advice ?