I have sunk into a huge lull in my life. I don't want to move further, and I can't go back. Nothing is appealing. This started after my last session in therapy It kicked my ass. I can't get over anythign. I am an emotional wreck. To top this off, I am by myself. My friends either graduated or left for home this summer. I live at my college stil, but I don't have a job so I just sit at home and wait for my apartment mates to come home. I am so isolated. This dose nothing to help Ive tried to contact my friends, but they don't have internet, and I don't have a car. I just want to be in a good mood again. Everything seems so futle. School therapy love life. I don't want to seem over dramtic, but I am loosing the point ot everything. What is the point to go to school if I only keep doing the same thing over and over agian. What is the point of therapy, Im never goign to be the same. all I do is learn to walk with a limp. Im stiff different, Im still cripled, I am just more socially acceptable. SO basicly Im not here to help myslef I m here to be become mor elike myslef or at least what I should of been.
With in the last week I feel like Ive lost so many of my answers. This all use to mena something, but now I rationalize it. It all just seems so fruitless.
I knwo I sound like Im trying to get attention, but I am nto. I waht so much jsut to find help.
WHy am I not normal. Why don't I have the chocolate and vinilla choices, not the cod liver or cow tongue.
I just don't know.
My email is email@example.com I would appreciate anythign.
This above all: to thine own self be true,And it must follow, as the night the day,Thou canst not then be false to any man.