I watched that last episode too and thought the same thing kinda. I wish I had friendships as good as theirs. Mine just don't seem honest. I'm not myself around them (I'm not myself around anyone actually), so I guess I'm the one being dishonest. But I still envy the kind of friendships they had (without all the MTV Real World drama).


That post "Don't Be Fooled By Me" by fatkid_1000pd is exactly how I feel. I'm sad and lonely too, and I don't let anyone know it except here. I depress myself by not letting myself be myself. But I am on medication for depression now, and I will start therapy to deal with other stuff sometime soon, so I have a little hope for myself. Don't give up. Most people don't show it but feel really lonely too.

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In the name of the Anger, and of the Sadness, and of the Unholy Fear. Amen.