BSB; Thad is absolutely the best person you could have spoken to.
It is a natural thing that things seem out of whack for you right now and that you have some emotions that others do not understand.
You are young and I am glad that you have found us. Just sorry for why you are here.
It can be a daunting experience to post for the first time for young men trying to come to grips with many issues. So take you time and please be gentle with yourself ok. You deserve that.
Read, listen, talk and post and join us. You will find we come from a diverse background and every element of society. We do not judge. We care , have brotherly affection of the really good kind, offer support and shoulders to lean on.
So Welcome BSB
IT REALLY IS OK TO STUMBLE. NONE OF US ARE PERFECT.