Hello,
Not sure where/how to start, but here goes: I was sexually abused around the age of eight and it continued for about three or four years (I have a hard time recalling the exact time frame as I put a lot of energy into blocking out the memories). My abuser was another boy around the same age, so for the longest time I didn't even know it was abuse or know to associate any of his actions or his words as abuse. But there was always this feeling inside that what happened to me was wrong. It's been hard to fight that fear of judgment, the fear that no one will believe me or that what happened to me wasn't a big deal or that all of the emotional pain I've been through was all made up over nothing. I spent the last 15 years living in fear, guilt, shame, and isolation, but I don't want to keep living like that.
I was fortunate enough to find an amazing counselor, who I've been seeing for the last three years, who has helped me on my journey to recovery. I joined this site to get that extra support from other survivors and hopefully one day be able to help others in their journey to recovery as well.
I'm still scared and nervous about talking fully about my experience, but it feels good taking this first step. Hope I haven't rambled.