I'm 34 years old. I'm a husband and a father. I have alot of responsibilities to raise happy healthy kids and be a good husband. But I have not been able to because of my csa and I've been denying for years that it actually exists. Now that I acknowledge it. Things are starting to unravel. My sanity. My wife wants to leave because she feels like I have been lying to her through out our entire marriage. I am letting her vent instead of not allowing her room to be angry and it has really gotten hard for me and for my wife. I've decided to recover and she thinks it's just a tactic to get her to stay like another manipulation tool. I don't feel like that's what it is. But I don't know what to tell her other than I do love her and I want to be married which I really do. So this is it I'm here and I can't go back so hi everyone! smile I'm just realizing this is a hard road I'm on.