My abuser trained me to masturbate, excessively. Now, I do it, not compulsively, but habitually, daily. Most of the time, it's not remotely sexual; it's just something I should do ever morning. But I feel like this only reinforces the abuse and the ways I was trained to use myself for "feel good" experiences, that feel emotionally empty and damaging.

Have any of you had a similar experience? Has anyone found a path towards resolution with this impulse, a way to come to terms with that portion of the abuse or a similar form of abuse?
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