I usually try to stay away from my anger. It terrifies me. I don't want to be like them, I don't want to strike out and hurt someone else because I'm hurting.

But I can't help but feel angry. Cheated. The fact that the word "Misused" enters my mind only makes it worse. The concept of misuse, of the word use...that someone used me. Used me for their own gain.

I'm sorry.

I'm a bit scattered.