Welcome to MS.
I get terrifying, as well. My Therapist suggested group a few months ago and I was in no way interested in that kind of humiliation.
I found MS and figured it was pretty close to the same thing. I dove in and pretty much haven't turned back. Maybe group is in my future after all.
I visit everyday, or night, and have become a little fixated on getting some feedback. Some validation, some acknowledgement, ultimately some empathy and understanding from those who truly understand.
Great start, we get it, because we were right where you are now.
Do what feels right for you, read, post some if it feels right.
I am sure you will find the same support I and everyone here has.
Presence is the key, for all we have is now.
All we ever have is right now.
Formerly Adam A Gedman (AKA - A damAGed man)
But you can call me Kevin
Toronto Mini WoR - May 2014