good start, kasper! and once you take the first step - the rest is not quite so scary.
i tried the whole denial and repression and forget about it route, too. didn't work. actually just made it worse.
so i tried T and this MS forum and reading and writing a lot - and that has all helped. hope you find the same.
anyway - welcome. you are among friends who will understand almost anything you say. these guys have been my lifeline.
hope to see you around,
"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself... And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity." - Paulo Coelho