good start, kasper! and once you take the first step - the rest is not quite so scary.
i tried the whole denial and repression and forget about it route, too. didn't work. actually just made it worse.
so i tried T and this MS forum and reading and writing a lot - and that has all helped. hope you find the same.
anyway - welcome. you are among friends who will understand almost anything you say. these guys have been my lifeline.
hope to see you around,
"That you are here - that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. . . What will your verse be?" Robin Williams as John Keating in "Dead Poets Society"