hi

my t says i don't say much/don't say enough so- here i am...

i mean, i'd rather just shove everything into the dark corners of my mind and maybe pretend that it never happened. not to me. yeah... i'd rather do that than talk about it. but i guess that's not how this works. it doesn't fix itself on its own like i've been hoping it would through the power of indifference and denial. i guess the flashbacks, panic attacks, depression, anxiety, and compulsions to hurt myself have kinda made that a little clearer.

well, i'm hella nervous/unsure/terrified about all of this online support community business, but i was told this~~ might help me, you know, understand things... vent... not feel so alone... solve all my problems... ... jk. mayhaps i will post poetry and read things. hard to know how to start after i post this message...


Edited by kasper (11/04/13 07:28 PM)