all my life I isolated and felt I had to do this thing alone. when I finally decided that my way was never going to work I knew I would have to allow some people in to me that was all NEW GROUND
it is still a struggle but I am moving forward... seems like this ground is pretty muddy lol
Towards thee I roll, thou all-destroying but unconquering whale; to the last I grapple with thee; from hell's heart I stab at thee; for hate's sake I spit my last breath at thee. let me then tow to pieces, while still chasing thee, thou damned whale! Thus, I give up the spear!"
Herman Melville