An amazing statement indeed.

I can only tell you about myself and hope you get my point.
I had 5 perps ... between the ages of 3 and 9.

I have 'forgiven' 2, 3, and 4 ...
for 2 reasons.
This happened in the late 50's/early 60's. I am convinced that if it were today ... knowing what everybody knows now ...
they wouldn't have laid a finger on me.
They didn't 'hurt' me and although I have no idea if I was the only one back then I am certain that they are not a danger to other children now.
They aren't and truly weren't pedophiles.
If I thought they were I'd have gone after them years ago.
I've let them go because to some small degree that lightens the load ...
and I'll take any relief I can get.

I'd like nothing better than to send 1 and 5 to hell ...
if they weren't there already.
I wish I could claim that I am the only reason they are there ...
but I know I'm not.

If you read some of my poetry you'll soon see that I am being a bit of a hypocrite by telling you to be more gentle with yourself and let go
of at least some of it ........
mostly hate.
Hate is not your power Jude ... it's your jailer.


I wrote a lot more than I'm submitting ... explaining the anguish I live with to this day.
If I had continued I would never have been able to finish ...
and so I'll stop now.
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Experience is a brutal teacher.