i think my mother was a good one - until she married husband #2. something in her died when my real father died (i was almost 3). i was almost 6 when she re-married. then i lost her completely - as far as emotional connection. and she just went through the motions. looked VERY good from the outside - overcompensation - but empty. i was never physically hungry or dirty or badly clothed or sheltered. we were affluent and had the status props. but i needed so much more. and all i got was the step-dad's cruelty.

"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself... And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity." - Paulo Coelho