I really don't know. I just don't. It makes me teary typing this and admitting this - I never had a loving, caring mother who I could trust. There were often days when I'd google 'loving mother' or look up 'femininity' on wikipedia to at least intellectually grasp what it might be, or might've been like, to be loved by a mother.

I happened to come across an old thread named 'Mother's Day' and it triggered me. My mother doesn't love me...she used and abused me. All this time on MS, this is the first time I've let those thoughts out...

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