I'm certain the early acting out was related to this---the fear, the anger...
I did really, really stupid stuff...things "smart" kids weren't supposed to do. Later at age 15 I knew I was okay...and got an answer which relieved my mind tremendously.
I think the college student experiment stuff (psychological guinea pig/medical) was "plain" old acting out in my own hidden way. This was coincidentally correlated with my "rejoining" the trajectory.
Edited by Suwanee (08/07/13 11:05 PM)
You take a walk and you try to understand
Nothing can hurt you
Unless you want it to... R.E.M./Pylon "Crazy"
My Story: Cruel Summer