Nervous sweating nauseous..

Well I'm going to do this anyways...
I am Sven. Just turned 18 this month. I had seen this site before but wasn't old enough to join. So I've been having a tough week i guess and remembered the forum again. So here I am..

I've been abused by my father. And there were some other people but I have only vague memories about that. The ones with my father in it are very clear though. Haunt me at night. During the day if i have nothing to do to keep myself occupied.
So that's a little about me... Ask away, if you want.

*nervous laughter*
In the howling wind
Comes a stinging rain
See it driving nails
Into souls on the tree of pain
From the firefly a red orange glow
See the face of fear
Running scared in the valley below
~ Bullet The Blue Sky - U2