I was 6 or 7 when the confusing sexual stuff happened. But I was severely neglected from birth - so - as a result of coming to MS, I realized I had to reset my "when the trauma started" date. It started before birth.
It's a heroes journey, and you are the hero.

Loving Kindness Meditation will dramatically improve your spirits; give it a try for just 3 days: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sz7cpV7ERsM