This is inspiring Alfred, thank you for sharing this. Almighty God, Our Father truly loves for us, moving Him to strengthen us even when we curse His name in our fearful hour. In fact, He writes in Matthew 12 that "every sort of sin and blasphemy will be forgiven men" except against the holy spirit, so we are aware that He is "secure" and can hear us and our transgressions against Him and still support us. That is comforting to hear that in our moments of weakness, He is there to help us.
To be able to feel that inner motivation to work to sustain something Alfred, that encouragement to build, grow and maintain a healthy way, that is also encouraging, I wish you much success on your plans.
It is good to see you again,