It is NOT a crazy thought. You are very vulnerable and it's a good sign that you recognize it.

And again, "knowing what you want" is so very important. While it's not exactly a good thing that you gain more control over your thoughts while drinking, all I can say is... "in vino veritas."
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"Don't think it hasn't been a little slice of heaven just because it hasn't!" --Bugs Bunny