I have these sexual thoughts, and urges that aren't me. When they come they bother me so bad. When I see men, mostly those who look good, I want to sleep with them. I mainly want to know what their penis looks like. Sometimes, I imagine myself as a woman, and whoever I am looking at is inside of me. Being a survivor of sexual abuse, I know this can be a problem, but at times, the thoughts are unbearable. I literally have to shake myself out of it. I recently had one day free of those thoughts, and that was the best day ever. I was able to look at women, and have normal sexual fantasies about them and feel good about it. Is there any tricks to slowing this down? I know I need to seek therapy, but money is an object when it comes to my insurance. open to suggestions....i am tired of the images
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