A quick update: I received a reply from my friend who I wrote and shared my lengthy and descriptive story with. He took it much better than I thought he would. However, he is a guy who does not talk emotions, except in writing. He has never been one to comment when I say how I feel, so I'm not sure if he is one to talk to about this. But he concluded from my story, that I need to start dating and experimenting with my identity. And he is right. I don't believe I have been too damaged because it was my only sexual experience, and I didn't like what was happening, and was old enough to know. Now I have the power to say so, and be in control of what I want.

Thanks everyone for your warm intros, and please keep stories and thoughts coming - I learn from others by asking questions and hearing answers and stories.

Good night!