I was also immersed into Messiah's death and resurrection. It gets better the more memories The Maker has access to. It is a process. It gets better and better. Trusting Him takes time. He knows that.

Sorry if I missed it. May it go well

CJ
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Wolves will live with lambs. Leopards will lie down with goats. Calves, young lions, and year-old lambs will be together, and little children will lead them.