** Possible triggers**
Just the idea of young teens (12-13ish), thinking about sex, and girls and boobs triggers me. It gives me shame and anxiety in that maybe what happened between me and my brother when I was 13 (he was 16 1/2) wasn't abuse. Maybe it was pure expirementation. I don't remember much whether I felt coerced or threatened. I do remember enjoying some of it but what else happened. Why do I not remember much more if it wasn't abusive or traumatic.
"Being with people that understand you...Priceless"
"and i don't want the world to see me, cause i don't think that they'd understand"
"You don't know what love is...you just do as your told"
"My life has changed. What you take as a simple thing, is not so simple for me anymore"