"All the talk about how courageous I am by therapists just goes out the window and I feel like crap. And this hit when I was already depressed. It makes me feel like I should have made him shoot me instead of let him rape me." -Jaifian

i understand your statement perfectly. i asked myself why i submitted to a death threat. all i had to go on was a threat, a choke, and a look in the eye. no gun.

i don't blame myself for not choosing death before dishonour.
i chose life. he was a killer.
i survived. you survived.
this is the life we chose.
the life of a survivor.

i believe that decision saved your life.
i know it saved mine.
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Victor|Victim

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