Hang in there Daniel. Yes, it sucks, and its so unfair...none of us asked for this...why are we stuck with this crap? Reliving it over and over..
No good answers here friend. Nights are always the worst, but morning will come, and with daylight things will seem a little better. Remember, you survived thats what matters.
"When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown, the dream is gone
And I have become comfortably numb."Pink Floyd