Hang in there Daniel. Yes, it sucks, and its so unfair...none of us asked for this...why are we stuck with this crap? Reliving it over and over..

No good answers here friend. Nights are always the worst, but morning will come, and with daylight things will seem a little better. Remember, you survived thats what matters.

Seems I've got to have a change of scene
Every night I have the strangest dreams
Imprisoned by the way it could have been
Left here on my own or so it seems
I've got to leave before I start to scream
Joe Cocker