why is mind like this? why wouldn't just let it go?? how are we supposed to live like this?? why is it so unfair!

ibeen doing eveything to be ok.. i didn't even log in here.. and then bam! there, remember, remember that, remember this, remember their voice, remember the ones you couldn't help, remember the ones who died... whst am i doing? why does it sabotages me like this... i didn't ask to be alive... i just want the no-more...