You are in good company here. We are men in all shapes and sizes, all walks of life, all ages, all orientations, and from several different countires. But the one thing that unites us is our childhood experiences, and how that affected our lives. You've made a good start by posting your introduction. Keep reading and posting when you need to get something out or ask a question. From this point forward, you do not have to do this alone.
I went back to the doctor
To get another shrink.
I sit and tell him about my weekend,
But he never betrays what he thinks.
Can you see the real me, doctor?. The Who