You are in good company here. We are men in all shapes and sizes, all walks of life, all ages, all orientations, and from several different countires. But the one thing that unites us is our childhood experiences, and how that affected our lives. You've made a good start by posting your introduction. Keep reading and posting when you need to get something out or ask a question. From this point forward, you do not have to do this alone.
"I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try and laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry, boys don't cry"The Cure