It's on no one else to pick me up but me. I grew up. My childhood lost. All I can do is reflect and mourn. It's gone. That doesn't mean my future has to be lost as well. It's all about taking care of myself. Allowing myself to feel, reaching out to you guys for help and advice, setting boundaries with people in my life (cutting out the abuser and now the unhealthy mother).
You're on your way man. Thanks for inspiring us with this post. We all need to pursue recovery like our lives depended on it. In fact our lives DO
depend upon it. No stopping, no compromises. Keep it up csa survivor.
"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "Joni Mitchell