Wiping the slate clean of what exactly?
Past delusions. Relying on promises that will never be kept. Relying on emotional sensation instead of evidence about what I really need to do to heal. Relying on someone else to rescue me when there is no reason to think that will happen. Relying on someone else to provide me with worth. Those kind of things.
Like a spent gladiator
crawling in the colosseum dust
who can count on his remaining limbs
all the people he can trust.
Like the one who stands behind him
cheering him on
Estatic when he stands defiant,
wild with abandon when he's gone
just stay alive.
do whatever you need to.
you are worth it.