Life In Hell

Some of the things I've seen ... seem so obscene
I swear they should've never been
Bad dreams ... Weird scenes
Flashbacks ... Splashed across a silver screen
X-Rated Disney ... Makes me dizzy
Keeps me busy like a dirty magazine
So extreme ... I can't come clean
You know what I mean
Cuz you did it to me real good
You did it so damn well
Such a sweet little innocent child
But you sentenced me to LIFE IN HELL !

LIFE IS HELL !
DON'T TOUCH ME !

You better beLIEve I ain't no saint
I'm no angel ... Never wrote the bible
I'm no devil ... Don't want no trouble
I'm a stone age tribal rock n' roll rebel
Learned my licks in the school of hard knocks
Locked my soul in a cold steel box
I earned my fix ... Paid my dues
Get my kicks being used and abused
I can't refuse
Cuz you did it to me real good
You did it so damn well
Such a sweet little innocent child
But you sentenced me to LIFE IN HELL !

LIFE IS HELL !
DON'T TOUCH ME !

Your kingdom is my prison
Your poison is my passion
This is my confession - I'm a sinner pure and simple
Sex is my religion and your body is my temple

LIFE IN HELL ... It ain't so tough
Some of us can't get enough of ...
LIFE IN HELL ... It's not so hot
Rotten luck ... All I got is ...
LIFE IN HELL ... Full of demons
Wheeling ... Dealing ... Stealing ... Scheming
LIFE IN HELL ... I must be dreaming
Every morning I wake up screaming ...

LIFE IS HELL !

-------author's note----------
these words were written over 20 years ago by me.
it was early in my path to recovery.
it does not accurately reflect my current state of mind, but i wanted to share it with you.
i found that writing my thoughts and feelings on paper, then reading them and forming them into songs and poems allowed me to look at myself from a different perspective. it was essential to increase self-awareness.
TRY TO TELL YOURSELF THE TRUTH, even if it hurts.

other poems by me:
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=441557#Post441557
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=441489#Post441489
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthr...3020#Post433020
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=441024#Post441024
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=432554#Post432554
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthr...5609#Post435609
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