Alcoholic parents: Check
Abandonment, neglect, and deprivation: Check
Sexually abused at 13: Check
Repeatedly re-enacted the abuse with men: Check
Guilt and shame: Check
Sex became the primary source of self-worth and validation: Check
Came to a point of total sexual abstinence: Check
Seeking to find self-worth in something else: Check
Add some drugs and alcohol, and you could be me!
There are things in my life that I feel good about, but never could feel any self-worth from. What I've learned in AA is that I am a worthwhile person just because I am. Its not because I can do this or that, not because I have such good charachter (hah), or looks (ehh). I am a worthwhile person just because I am. Works for me.
"In the burning Heart, Just about to burst
There's a quest for answers, An unquenchable thirst
In the darkest night, Rising like a spire
In the burning heart, The unmistakable fire"Survivor