Hey Ed,

Alcoholic parents: Check
Abandonment, neglect, and deprivation: Check
Sexually abused at 13: Check
Repeatedly re-enacted the abuse with men: Check
Guilt and shame: Check
Sex became the primary source of self-worth and validation: Check
Came to a point of total sexual abstinence: Check
Seeking to find self-worth in something else: Check
Add some drugs and alcohol, and you could be me!

There are things in my life that I feel good about, but never could feel any self-worth from. What I've learned in AA is that I am a worthwhile person just because I am. Its not because I can do this or that, not because I have such good charachter (hah), or looks (ehh). I am a worthwhile person just because I am. Works for me.

Jude
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Seems I've got to have a change of scene
Every night I have the strangest dreams
Imprisoned by the way it could have been
Left here on my own or so it seems
I've got to leave before I start to scream
Joe Cocker