Welcome to the site BHAfan. You will find a lot of good people and resources here. I joined last July and this place helped me to start sorting stuff out, till I could get into T (therapy). It can bite as a process, but we can move forward too with the help of others who actually get us, even sometimes for me when I don't get myself. Again, welcome Brother!
“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark. The real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.” - Plato