Anger, fear, self-hatred, shame, even horny......all the feelings a guy can have are okay to express here. Talking about it is the first step in healing. It might get worse before getting better, but hang in there. We've got your back.
"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "Joni Mitchell