Welcome Ben,

Anger, fear, self-hatred, shame, even horny......all the feelings a guy can have are okay to express here. Talking about it is the first step in healing. It might get worse before getting better, but hang in there. We've got your back.

Jude
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Seems I've got to have a change of scene
Every night I have the strangest dreams
Imprisoned by the way it could have been
Left here on my own or so it seems
I've got to leave before I start to scream
Joe Cocker