Those pics do exist and are probably all over the net by this time. My pics from 50 years ago are on many sites and I would imagine the videos also although I never saw the videos even after they were made.
Thanks for mentioning your 2 cents about the relationship with the abuser. I have the same problem as Jason even though I know now that my sfather (surrogate father) sold me to the movies where I was viciously beaten for the smallest infraction. I'm really glad that you stressed that, thanks from me also.
Peace, Rainbows, Love & Healing
Stick around, It will get better....