I believe you.
Yes it was abuse.
You don't have to remember it all for it to be true.
It is oftentimes like a chronic condition, sometimes in remission and all is well, only to find that a new low, shame, ptsd, and other symptoms come roiling back up to confound me further.
I have Incest. Sometimes it goes into remission, sometimes it comes back at night....sometimes I feel better, sometimes I feel worse.
The more I do for me, the better I feel overall. Don't think in terms of recovery as an event, but as treatment for a condition.