people do better when I'm not around
People laugh louder when I don't make a sound
People smile brighter if I'm not in their sight
People sing softer on a Jacobless night.

I think I am a runt
Destined to be eaten by my peers
I think I was hurt
So the more important would be spared.

I think there were multiple perps
Because I was already spilt milk
Like nature's way of containing the problem
Gang up on the one who is already sick

Do I exist
just so that others
could stay clean?

Was God's plan
to sacrifice my soul
to make me a machine?

A friend once said to me
he'd never marry a non-virgin
because they are damaged goods.

What does that make me?
He was a fool and very wrong.
But the phrase is in my head.

Damaged goods.
Already ruined.
No sense trying to fix it now.
Might as well feed him to the pigs.

Might as well, right?
I mean, it would make sense
for God to do that.

If he's not going to stop the monsters
might as well round them up
get them to all feed at the same trough

get them to all hurt the same kids
better then everyone getting hurt

The Ancient Athenians sent 14 children
to feed the Minotaur.
It was either that or have the entire town
be slaughtered.

That's who I am.
The child of Athens,
sacrificed so the rest of the children
would never know what true pain is.

The first time was a tragedy.
The rest? Eh, might as well.
Better than some other kid.
Some child who still deserves love.
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Like a spent gladiator
crawling in the colosseum dust
who can count on his remaining limbs
all the people he can trust.
Like the one who stands behind him
cheering him on
Estatic when he stands defiant,
wild with abandon when he's gone

just stay alive.
do whatever you need to.
you are worth it.