I saw a Joan Baez quote on Facebook:
As we know,
Forgiveness of oneself
Is the Hardest of All Forgivenesses
I think this is so true, I struggle with forgiving myself for what happened and why it continued with my silence. I also struggle with forgiving myself to what may have happened in lost time and fugues--this is hard because I may never truly know what happened.
I think this is the first step in forgiving, forgiving myself for the abuse--once I can then I believe the healing will be much easier.