Wow, trust seems like the "impossible dream" sometimes. It means making yourself vulnerable, risking being hurt, betrayed, used or abused. Can any of us really afford that? But what's the alternative? Numbing myself with drugs, alcohol, and sex? I've been that route and don't want to go back there.

So trust is all thats left....but how?

"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "
Joni Mitchell