Thanks, seanm.

What do you mean when you said "I've finally gotten healthy enough to realize it's not sexual or even healthy for me personally"?

I just want it to go away and be replaced with normal urges for a straight guy, ideally I would love to have that instead.

The shame kills me... shame that I acted out, shame that I can't get a boner to straight porn, it's just a lot of shame sadly.