Originally Posted By: Magellan
..... I was amazed to find that I wasn't entirely blaming myself for the failure, that I was aware that he was partly responsible, and that I did the best that I could.......What a MAJOR accomplishment to be able to go through disappointment, without abusing myself.

This IS a big step Magellan! Thanks for sharing it with us. You have no idea how much it means to me to hear this.

"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "
Joni Mitchell